Sorry for being a bit MIA over on the blog this week. I’ve been thinking about this topic for awhile and while I haven’t really refined or polished it, I thought I would at least share what I have so far.
So around 2014, I ate relatively “normal.” That meaning I didn’t really obsess over what I was eating. Food never was a problem or concern in my life. But in spring of 2015, I was tempted to go on the dangerous path of restrictive eating and dieting. And at this point, I started obsessing in what I was eating. That became spinach, avocado, and other vegetables, but very little or if not at all on carbs and junk food. I have much to be grateful for as this is where I fell in love with nutrition. I learned that a calorie is not a calorie and that I’m much better off nourishing myself with nutrient dense foods.
Without rambling on too much, I slowly became obsessed with eating healthy. Eating not only the right amount but the right quality. But I quickly four out that this made me sad and lonely as I stopped going to social events and that I was constantly tired and cranky. In other words, I wasn’t mentally healthy even though I probably was physically healthy.
So I started indulging a bit. I started eating things in moderation. And I really tried to redefine what healthy meant for me. And I’ve been lucky and blessed enough to share part of this journey on the blog. (Like this one for example). But sadly enough, I’ve been receiving unwelcome and heartbreaking reactions from my friends.
As I got a few French fries from my school’s dining hall, I passed one of my friends who wasn’t close but knew me pretty well. She knew from last year that I was the one getting lunch and dinner from the salad bar. She knew me as the one who didn’t eat any cake, sweets, any processed or fatty foods. And she was right. I was that person last year.
But as much as it was hard for me to mentally change my outlook on food, it’s been hard for me to deal with the reactions I’ve been getting from my friends.
Whenever I get something a bit unhealthy, my friends gasp and almost scold me. And as much as I appreciate their concern and attention to me, I wish they would realize how hard it was for me to overcome that mental block I had before of “I shouldn’t eat this because it’s unhealthy.” Because you know what? I redefine my definition of healthy. Its to be mentally and physically sane and happy and to practice sustainable things.
But it’s definitely hard to do so when your friends only see you as that health nut. It’s hard to change their perception of you and consequently, it’s hard to change yourself because you’re almost beholden to their thinking.
So yeah that’s pretty much what I have so far. Just like what I said in the beginning of this post, I don’t have this figured out at all. It’s something I’ve been grappling with this past week and I’m sure the many more weeks to come. But I thought I might share here because I know there are so many wise and caring people out here on the blogging world.
With that said, how do you deal with your friends perceptions of your eating habits?