What are you willing to fight for?

What are you willing to fight for?

To those who are struggling with eating and/or their body image, I ask, give me 3 minutes.

There have been many times where I wanted to restrict myself again. There are times where when looking at myself in the mirror, I do not love myself nor accept myself. There are times where I forget the emotional and internal hardships of restricting myself to a mere 1,200 calories every day, of saying no to anything processed no matter the occasion, of losing control of myself both mentally and physically.

But I stop myself.

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I don’t let myself redownload MyFitnessPal. I don’t let myself skip meals. I don’t let myself binge. I let myself be.

Amidst all the self-hate, I know that the happiness and satisfaction these restrictions will give me is temporary and short-lived. Yes, I may achieve society’s skinny and fit into size double zero clothes (to note, body image is whole spectrum so an unhealthy body image for someone might be another person’s healthy frame). But along comes a little to none self-esteem and constant noise inside my head. I can never eat peacefully, exercise peacefully, or live peacefully. I will continue to steer clear from social events in the fear of eating too much. I will continue to ignore my body and what my body needs.

And that’s all that takes for me to not turn back. While I don’t like where I am currently, I know that moving backwards won’t be any better. All I can do is continue moving forward, step by step with the faith that there is light (recovery) at the end of this long and dark tunnel.

So think long. Think hard. Think about what you want to fight for.

How Veganism Helped Me Recover from My Eating Disorder

How Veganism Helped Me Recover from My Eating Disorder

One of my New Year Resolutions for 2018 was to reconnect with my old friends. Moving to boarding school, I’ve found myself losing contact with a lot of my friends from my old school. So on New Years, I sent a few texts to those I sincerely missed and one of them was Sara!

Sara is the sweetest, most down-to-earth girl you’ll ever meet. Her beautiful, compassionate and selfless personality is contagious! I was so heart-broken when she told she suffered from an eating disorder. In fact, both of us had no idea we suffered from an eating disorder — and we’ve known each other since 3rd grade!

I was ecstatic when Sara said she would be totally up for writing a blog post for avolicious! I believe that Sara’s story will inspire and motivate many of you or those that you know to really make 2018 your healthiest and happiest year yet!

xoxo, Stephanie

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How Veganism Helped Me Recover from My Eating Disorder 

Guest post by Sara

I’d always had a disordered relationship with food. My naturally large appetite and love for pasta made it hard for me to stay healthy. My weight was constantly fluctuating, and I couldn’t stand my body. I developed an eating disorder when I was fourteen. I suffered from anorexia for about three years.

Although it’s hard to say that I’m fully recovered, I’m glad to report that I no longer deprive myself. I definitely still have some intrusive thoughts wondering how many calories are in that cookie, but now I consistently nourish my body with healthful foods and indulge a few times a week to keep me sane. Going vegan this past July radically changed my relationship with food for the better.

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As an animal lover, I had contemplated veganism for months. I thought I could never go vegan; I assumed it would be too hard and too restricting. But the moment I stepped into that leather shop in Italy, my perspective changed. I realized that what I consumed had a significant impact on the animals. I was supporting animal cruelty with everything I bought or ate. I cut out meat the next day and gradually cut out all other animal products over the next few weeks.

The greatest concern for me and my family was that I would lose weight. Plants are generally less calorie-dense than animal products. I initially was reluctant because I didn’t want to see myself spiral out of control again with my restrictive eating, but I had already decided to help change the world for the animals. Finally, I came across one of Bonny Rebecca’s videos about how veganism helped her overcome bulimia. I’d never been so determined. Her story showed me that veganism could help me recover from my eating disorder. I did hours of research online and met with a nutritionist to ensure that I ate sufficiently. What I failed to realize in the beginning was that food truly, really was my friend. I thought I was eating too much and felt guilty for wanting more — that was my anorexia talking to me.

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“I exercise to celebrate my strength and my body. I am so lucky I got to go on a hike with such a beautiful view.”

When you’re vegan, your body knows what you need. If you’re not satisfied, then eat more! This is the only way I have been able to maintain a healthy weight for the past few months. Often I fail to realize how few calories my meal has, and my body cries for more. It’s amazing what listening to your body can do. I thrive on a vegan diet when I listen to my cravings. I can eat when I am hungry, and I stop when I am full. It’s as simple as that. And I don’t ever feel weighed down, no matter how much I eat.

Although some perceive veganism as extremely restrictive, I have never felt so free. I no longer have to worry about how much I’m eating because I know my brain will take care of that by telling me when to start and when to stop eating. I am the happiest I have ever been. I hope that you can have the same loving relationship with food that I have gained through veganism.

 

What will you do this week for your body and mind?

XOXO,

Sara

Stephanie’s New Year Resolutions

Stephanie’s New Year Resolutions

Today, after sharing how to set New Year’s Resolutions that actually work, I wanted to share my New Year’s Resolutions with y’all.

I did post my New Year’s Resolutions last year, however, looking back now, I think they were far too spread out in categories and too ambitious that I barely achieved any of them. However, never one to be discouraged, I’m sharing my New Year’s Resolutions – which I’ve condensed to THREE! My mantra for 2017 is to be healthy and happy!

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ONE // Be a physically and mentally healthier person (read: this is very vague, but as explained on yesterday’s post, I’m going to be giving the details below)

Physically:

  • Until spring break 2017:
    • Continue exercising (ideally 5x a week)
    • Fit comfortably back into my old clothes
    • Lose 2-3 pounds per month (losing ½ pound per week)
      • I like to set my deadlines to academic breaks as I am away at home for the academic year and only get to come home during breaks so it’s a nice physical divide
  • Until summer break 2017:
    • Exercise 4-5x a week – obviously with summer camps and summer trips, it’s hard to exercise as often as during school where there are rigid schedules and times
    • Work on maintaining weight the record weight beginning of summer and check on weight every week
  • Until the start of the school year (fall 2017) and for the rest of the school year:
    • Continue maintaining weight à as you don’t have a weighing scale at school, take a picture of yourself every other week
    • Exercise 6x a week (I’ll probably be doing cross country, if I hopefully don’t get an injury…. so running 6x a week is a given)

TWO// To be truly happy

  • To journal everyday | I’ve found the benefits of journaling truly transforming. I am a worry-wart and a pessimist by heart, so I need to rant my feelings somewhere such as with a journal and pen or else I can be very mean and scary!
    • Until spring break:
      • Journal twice a week
    • Until summer break:
      • Journal four times a week
    • During the summer:
      • Journal everyday
    • After school starts until the end of the year:
      • Journal five-six times a week
  • I think every week (either Saturday night or Sunday night) to end the night by listing out 5 things I am grateful for during that week. I think in this day and age, it’s easy to get caught up and forget about how blessed and spoiled we are. And sometimes, all we see on media are the indulgences and luxuries of others so we tend to complain instead of being thankful for we have right now.
    • No specific deadline – I should be able to be grateful for at least 5 things every week

THREE// Invest more time into Avolicious

 Of course, saving the best for last! I started this blog as a way to share my passion for healthy eating, exercise, and writing, but I definitely have to admit that I fell out due to school. However, I WILL NOT MAKE THAT EXCUSE for 2017. I will make a concrete time out of my schedule to dedicate to Avolicious. Thank you to all who have been following and supporting us – it means the world!

  • Until spring break:
    • Post twice a week
    • Post on Instagram three times a week
    • Read and comment on other blogs for 10 minutes per week
  • Until summer break:
    • Post two-three times a week
    • Post on Instagram three times a week
    • Read and comment on other blogs for 15 minutes per week
  • During summer break:
    • Post 4-5 times a week
    • Post on Instagram daily (along w/ Insta stories)
    • Read and comment on other blogs for 25 minutes per week
    • Try a different social media platform (Facebook, Twitter)
  • Start of the school year until the end of the year:
    • Post two-three times a week
    • Post on Instagram three-four times a week
    • Read and comment on other blogs for 15 minutes per week

I wanted to make this year’s New Year Resolutions short and sweet but also meaningful to me. I’m trying to stop comparing and judging myself to others and instead, go at my own pace and do the things I love.

Good luck in 2017!

What are your New Year Resolutions for 2017?

xoxo,

Stephanie